Find the face you’ve seen a thousand times…

OK, so happiness is also about getting the sleep you need when you (desperately) need it, which is where yesterday’s entry went. In fact, sometime I may write an entire post on the sweetness of a good sleep, because frankly it makes me very, VERY happy to, say, wake up at 6am and then suddenly realise it’s Saturday.

(Parenthetically – anybody else have early-morning dreams in which they get up and start getting ready for work, only to hit some impossible snafu and get so incredibly frustrated they…wake up, all confused? Because I do, often enough to be bemused. I’ve missed imaginary busses and taken surreal showers in which I accidentally dump lotion on my hair. Several times I’ve theoretically left the house [ahem] half-dressed. Just very, very strange.)

Meanwhile, this post is about my waking hours, and a little detour happiness took this week.

Long story short: I met friend at services. Friend commiserates re: Lucy, as per all my friends, who come to think of it are a whole ‘nother entry in and of themselves. Anyway, this particular friend inquires if I’m planning on getting another cat. I hem and haw and say things like ‘eventually’; for now we already have another cat, and had about decided she would be enough.

Trouble is, as I’d been discovering to my dismay, Dolly isn’t really my cat. I mean, to all intents and purposes she’s not a cat at all, she’s a little person in a fur suit. We’re buddies well enough, but Shoemom’s the onewho fell in love with her as a kitten and has raised her since, so she’s the one who gets all the cuddles and the lap warming. That’s what I missed, not just the fact of a cat, but having a cat…

…Look, I’m not going to draw direct comparisons between pets and kids here; I find that whole ‘a boy is a pig is a dog’ line repugnant. But there are certain instinctive emotional needs that can find a satisfying outlet elsewhere when one has no offspring of their own species, is all I am saying.

This is where I am at when friend announces that she knows of a litter, five weeks old, available free to good home in another three. I’d better hop on the reserve list now, right? Besides…one of the kittens happens to be a tortoishell.
Um, I said. Heart leaping and then almost instantly hitting my shoes. How could I possibly be trying to fill Lucy’s place so soon? How could I fill it at all? Of course, I couldn’t. So clearly I was merely being completely selfish, trying to paper over her memory with a little helpless kitten, using it to assuage my own grief…

Just come and see them, said the friend. OK, I said.

And that’s how I learned that grief and happiness are not – should not – be mutually exclusive concepts.

Meet Jemima.

new kitteh   new kitteh exploring

kitteh back view

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24 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. rj_anderson
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 12:01:37

    Oh, Harley is ADORABLE! What a sweetie! *cuddles vicariously*

    So glad you didn’t shut her out of your life.

  2. rj_anderson
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 12:01:37

    Oh, Harley is ADORABLE! What a sweetie! *cuddles vicariously*

    So glad you didn’t shut her out of your life.

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  4. shing_
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 12:19:28

    Oh my, the sheer adorableness! The colouring split right down the middle is cool!

  5. shing_
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 12:19:28

    Oh my, the sheer adorableness! The colouring split right down the middle is cool!

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  7. kalquessa
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 17:50:24

    I love her little face!!!!

    Congrats on your new feline overlord, I wish you much joy of her!

  8. kalquessa
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 17:50:24

    I love her little face!!!!

    Congrats on your new feline overlord, I wish you much joy of her!

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  10. solo_1
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 21:17:46

    She is so cute!
    The colour split is quite remarkable.
    Hope she brings you as much happiness and love as Lucy did. (I am sure Lucy would approve)

  11. solo_1
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 21:17:46

    She is so cute!
    The colour split is quite remarkable.
    Hope she brings you as much happiness and love as Lucy did. (I am sure Lucy would approve)

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  13. Shoebox
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 22:13:31

    Me, too. Thanks so much.

    Unfortunately, calling her ‘Harley Quin’ got scotched the moment I tried to explain it to Shoemom. I mean, this was just at ‘Batman villain’, I didn’t even get to the ‘psycho killer’ part.

    So, Jemima it is – probably Jemma for short. Now all I have to worry about is spending the rest of her existence explaining that she’s not named after pancake batter…

  14. Shoebox
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 22:13:31

    Me, too. Thanks so much.

    Unfortunately, calling her ‘Harley Quin’ got scotched the moment I tried to explain it to Shoemom. I mean, this was just at ‘Batman villain’, I didn’t even get to the ‘psycho killer’ part.

    So, Jemima it is – probably Jemma for short. Now all I have to worry about is spending the rest of her existence explaining that she’s not named after pancake batter…

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  16. Shoebox
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 22:16:28

    Thanks! Isn’t it just? 🙂 She also – not visible above – has three black paws and one red one. And the red one is the only one with pink pads. [sporfles all over again at the memory]

  17. Shoebox
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 22:16:28

    Thanks! Isn’t it just? 🙂 She also – not visible above – has three black paws and one red one. And the red one is the only one with pink pads. [sporfles all over again at the memory]

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  19. Shoebox
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 22:21:58

    Thank you! Yeah, a wide swath is being cut already – not only are Shoemom and -sis hopelessly in wuv, but the friend’s son is miffed because I got to her first.

    Now I just have to hope it doesn’t go to her head…I mean, not more than usual for her race. 🙂

  20. Shoebox
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 22:21:58

    Thank you! Yeah, a wide swath is being cut already – not only are Shoemom and -sis hopelessly in wuv, but the friend’s son is miffed because I got to her first.

    Now I just have to hope it doesn’t go to her head…I mean, not more than usual for her race. 🙂

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  22. Shoebox
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 22:26:00

    Thanks much for that. 🙂 She’ll have to go a pretty long way, but…well, it’s a promising start.

  23. Shoebox
    Jul 17, 2009 @ 22:26:00

    Thanks much for that. 🙂 She’ll have to go a pretty long way, but…well, it’s a promising start.

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